Matty life is so hard not having you here. im so lost and feel my life is so incomplete. dad says to walk along side you but i try so hard but everything around me remines me of you. i have gone to church on sundays and yes it has helped me to feel closer to you but i still cannot quite come to terms with why you were taken from me so very young. life moves on and people seem to think that after 3 years i have moved on, but i feel like screaming at them i cant move on my only son was taken from me how the hell do you think i feel,i feel very bitter at life yet i try not to be. ifeel it must have been something i have done in my life a punishment from god yet i tried hard to be a good person. dad says im not to blame and not to think that way but what other reason is there form my healthy son to be taken over night without warning. love you so much my man and miss you, but i promise i will never forget you and will hold you close in my heart forever. love mum xxxxxxxx

IT Has been 3 years since you passed away but they say life gets easier. what a joke my life has got harder each day without you matthew, i miss you more now then ever, i have started to walk along side you but it is really hard to drag myself along some days. your sister will be 21 on sunday the age i lost you, how hard it is to try and be positive for naomi but in my heart im scared it could happen again, if only i knew why god took you away it might make my thoughts alittle easier to bear, i miss you matty so much love mum

I Think of you every minute of the day.today is your sisters 26th bithday, i know you will be with her but its not the same my man as seeing you there. i still cannot understand why god had to take one of the most precious things in my life away from me, and to take your life at such a young age all because of a 5 minute heart scan that could have saved you.i hope we can make a difference to other peoples lives through the knowledge we have gained. the one knowledge i will have is that i hold you in my heart and you will remain there forever. sleep tight my man love mum.