Matty life is so hard not having you here. im so lost and feel my life is so incomplete. dad says to walk along side you but i try so hard but everything around me remines me of you. i have gone to church on sundays and yes it has helped me to feel closer to you but i still cannot quite come to terms with why you were taken from me so very young. life moves on and people seem to think that after 3 years i have moved on, but i feel like screaming at them i cant move on my only son was taken from me how the hell do you think i feel,i feel very bitter at life yet i try not to be. ifeel it must have been something i have done in my life a punishment from god yet i tried hard to be a good person. dad says im not to blame and not to think that way but what other reason is there form my healthy son to be taken over night without warning. love you so much my man and miss you, but i promise i will never forget you and will hold you close in my heart forever. love mum xxxxxxxx